I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Wow, I’m feeling so many things, I don’t know what to write about today!?! I think that God is truly doing a work in my heart, and I want you all to know that He has conquered my fears of the future and brought me to a place of contentment and peace in that area. In fact, He is stirring in me a real love for my new home, and I am struck by His grace in this. I feel like, for the first time, I can whole-heartedly say that I am in Thailand…and I very much want to be here.
Of course, in my lame-o humanity, I’ve found myself in the midst of other fears. All of a sudden, since I want to be here and to begin establishing my new life, I am starving for connections and deep relationships. So I’m like freakin’ out, as if it’s all up to me. Again, God is so crazy-good in encouraging my heart and reminding me that it’s a process, that this awkward, “I-hate-being-new” stage is only a season. God will bring about friends and relationships simply because He is faithful and He loves us, so I can just…chill out.
I feel like no matter what I’m struggling with, it’s always just a question of contentment. And the answer? Paul is clear — we can have victory in all things, simply because Jesus is enough. So when I’m longing, or waiting, or wishing…may I rest in that promise.
And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.