just a lil bit caught in the middle: the prayers of a weary heart


“Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end.” Ecclesiastes 3:11

They say we live our lives mostly “in the middle.” And it’s really rather true, and it’s really rather frustrating, because everything around us is a little bit…incomplete. So we wait. We wait for dreams to be fulfilled, prayers to be answered, lives to be made whole, sin to be defeated. And lately, at times, it’s even made me angry. Why has God planted desires and then seemingly forgotten about them? Why do people choose to follow Jesus, and then give up along the way? Why do I still see brokenness and sin when I search the deepest corners of my heart? It makes sense to be upset, because we know what it’s supposed to look like, and we know that this — so much that we see around us — is definitely not it.

But here’s the thing.

I am tired…of being tired. Aren’t you? And I am tired of my wimpy, defeated prayers. I’m tired of losing hope and losing sleep. I’m tired of pretending like I don’t know the end of the story.

This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It’s adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike “What’s next, Papa?” God’s Spirit touches our spirits and confirms who we really are. We know who he is, and we know who we are: Father and children. And we know we are going to get what’s coming to us — an unbelievable inheritance! [Romans 8:15-16, MSG]

I’ve been learning a lot about prayer lately, and God has been reminding me that we’ve got to pray out of a heart of faith. God’s call to persistent and believing prayer has kind of been a forgotten thing in many churches. …Even though we know that all things are “yes in Christ Jesus” (2 Cor. 1:20), even though He’s told us time and again to “ask anything” and it will be given (John 15), even though we know how the story ends.

So can we give up on giving up? Can we see with new eyes of faith? Instead of a failure, can we see a work in progress? Instead of praying in frustration, can we pray in confidence? Instead of choosing doubt when God is silent, can we choose to trust in His timing and purposes?

Oh, God, that You would increase our faith and reveal to us more of Yourself as we wait for Your promises to be fulfilled.

So do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord. Remember the great reward it brings you! Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that he has promised. [Hebrews 10:35-36, NLT]

Other references:
-John 15
-Luke 18:1-3
Believing Prayer by Andrew Murray
How God Teaches Us to Pray by LG Parkhurst, Jr.

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